I still remember July 15th, 2016 when I woke up at jumma with dried up throat and scorching sunlight directly into my eyes from my window. It was due to the intense July weather that even our ACs weren’t working properly. To divert my mind and as per the habit, I checked my phone which was full of notifications and the top most was from Facebook Messenger, my friend’s message was on the top with text “Qandeel Baloch murdered by her brother“. It was weird, shocking, numb and so many other emotions all mixed trailing down my spine.
A little Background to what I felt for Qandeel Baloch when she was alive
Qandeel Baloch’s videos went viral but I was a lager in following up with it. I found her videos super weird with that fake accent and heaviest make up. In the start, I was one of those people who made fun of her. In fact, hated her. In the mid of all her popularity, I started getting less bothered by her. I started laughing with her and not at her. I used to watch her videos once a while and just like it away.
The time when Qandeel’s real identity was revealed, I still remember I was so furious on media for ruining it for her. Being a media student myself, I have learnt ethics of journalism and it was completely unethical. Showcasing her sensitive information like passport, ID card, nikkah nama and etc, it was all wrong. She appeared in some talk show and agreed to it and told everyone how brutally she was abused by her husband and the whole story. At that moment, for the first time she had my heart. Escaping from abusive spouse is really a big thing, that too from the background she belonged. It’s not just about Qandeel, any other woman who escapes an abusive spouse, she has my heart. Bravest Deed.
Then came the Maulana Qawi case where she revealed his hypocrisy which was declined by Maulana himself. I appreciated Qandeel on my social media platforms. I did joke on Maulana tho. But I remember telling my sister, Laraib, that she must have made Maulana cried because damn it, she legit shared the video on social media in which he is specifically asking her not to post it. I don’t remember which incident took place first but these two were in line.
July 15th, when I got to know the honor killing of Qandeel Baloch all of a sudden, I was numb while my hands were shivering. Honor Killing always gives shivers. Social media feed was flooded with her recent pictures, bruised face, swollen lips and eyes, tied up hair. SUCH A SHOCK. I came out of my bed and my sister came running to me and told me the same. I looked at her and told her how brutal this is. Whatever she did, murdering her was not a way.
While I went to fresh up and came back, i started scrolling through my twitter and it creeped me out as some wannabees were still joking on her death while some were happy that she died. My heart clinged more. I started following up her news on Twitter with her hashtag and each new update killed me inside. Not just Qandeel guys, it was every woman with dream who was killed that day.
The world was mourning that day. But sadly, we are yet to have a line between right and wrong. The people who were praying for her to die were now supporting Qandeel Baloch and were glorifying her deeds. In that all chaos, I shared my view. My view was that whatever happened with Qandeel is definitely wrong. No one in this world has a right to snatch away your life just for the sake of a man made caste or sects. But we should not forget that what she did was not a right path. She didn’t have any resources and no one to help her to complete her dreams hence she chose this path. It was our fault that she chose this path. Please stop glorifying her wrong deeds. And as usual, a heavy backlash was received.
We, people, are very weird. Trust me. Everyone forgot Qandeel Baloch but then Baaghi, a drama by Urdu 1 happened.
Baaghi – Review
I am not at all a drama watching person. It’s either watching the new episode of Game of Thrones or repeating random episodes of F.R.I.E.N.D.S. Last week due to disrupted sleep patterns, I was unable to sleep and it was 5:30 in the morning. Scrolling through Twitter, I saw a tweet related to Baaghi’s last episode and I was like, let’s watch it then. I watch first fifteen episodes in a go and then went to sleep. The rest thirteen I watched the next day and that’s how I ended it in two days.
I never liked Saba Qamar before but her acting in Baaghi made me her fan. So it started with Fauzia Batool’s home which is exactly it was in real. It follows up with depiction of the character of Fauzia, how rebellious and fierce she was by nature. It shows how Fauzia is an open minded girl who loathes society’s double standards and patriarchy. She falls in love with Abid (Ali Kazmi) who has recently came back from Dubai and has a cosmetic shop near her house. While Fauzia’s parents try to marry her to Fauzia’s sister-in-law’s brother forcefully and she runs away. She grants help from Chaudhery Sahib, the opinion leader of the village and with their help she grants permission to marry Abid.
Fauzia gets pregnant and gives birth to a baby boy. Later she gets to know that Abid has been cheating on her. She confronts him and he divorces her. With no help from family and in laws, she leaves the house on the final fight where he divorces her again. She leaves to the city from where she received modeling offer from an agency. There she makes friends with Rehan (famously known as DJ Khalid). In that roller coaster ride of getting into the elite class and modeling and all the rejections, she realizes it’s not easy to survive here. She starts making videos on various incidents that media show against her like the reality game show, singing competition and etc. She gets famous on social media in literally one day or two that make her demands high. While struggling in the career, she meets Shehryar (Osman Khalid Butt). Shehryar is a widower whose wife and child had died in a car accident. He falls for Fauzia Batool and clearly declares that he has no issues with Kanwal Baloch as he loved Fauzia Batool.
Busy in tackling all the obstacles in her life, Fauzia finally finds a way to the right path. She plans to marry Shehryar and gives all the authority to Rehan. She goes to visit her family for Eid for the last time. On the very night, her brother comes up with drugged milk glass. She drinks it and feels dizzy while he pins her nose and strangles her to death.
I loved this drama. Saba Qamar’s acting along with Ali Kazmi, Osman Khalid Butt, Sarmad Khoosat and DJ Khaled’s were so good. There was so much depth in the characters. I loved how they indulged into their characters and legit made indulge in it too.
The OST. Such a powerful OST Peera ve peera ve peera main ho jaun na Baaghi sung by the versatile singer Mr. Shuja Haider. It touches not just your heart but your soul deeply. In fact, I am writing this down right now while listening to the OST.
It was loaded with so much emotions that everyone who hated her now can realize how worse they were. Including me. We take a second to judge a person but never care what have they been going through?
It also gave us a chance to open our eyes to acknowledge the digital space, a space where everyone has a right to do anything they want regardless of what do you want. You don’t like something, don’t watch it. Simple is that.
Also, it teaches one most important life lesson of never being always available for anyone. She loved her family, she did everything for her family and in the end, it was her family who killed her. When not even your family is trustworthy how would you trust anyone else? Also, it shows how sometimes relations are not from blood but from heart.
What’s not good?
The startplus effects in some of the scenes. Made me puke. Remember that over acting wali aunty to gives place to Kanwal to live in her hostel? That aunty.
The storyline. It was not solely Qandeel’s life. They took two or three incidents from her life else were just something weird. Why would they make BRIGHT KAREN ISSAY Qandeel’s scene? They did. Weird. They made Kanwal looked the most bichari-est person ever. That’s not correct. I agree her life must have been miserable but what was shown in the drama was like, I don’t know, the worst.
Again the same point, they glorified her way. The way which was not right. The way which should’ve been corrected by us.
Maulana Qawi’s incident was not even touched a little in the drama. It was indeed the major incident that played a role in Qandeel Baloch’s death and the drama didn’t even have a single scene related to it. Worst decision ever. Coward act tbh. Very coward.
How I was affected?
It took me some days to get normal. It actually affected me really bad. I couldn’t stop thinking about how Qandeel would have suffered when she was being strangled. How heartless people can get just for the sake of the sects that wasn’t even made by Allah. Remember what Qandeel’s brother said while confessing? He said he killed Qandeel because of her social media videos, her videos were bringing shame to Baloch caste.
ONLY IF EDUCATION, THE BASIC NECESSITY OF LIFE, WOULD HAVE BEEN THE MOST IMPORTANT THING IN PAKISTAN.
Since, I am still listening to Baaghi OST, here’s Asim Azhar’s cover of Peera ve Peera